Frustrations

That is the place I am in right now. I. Am. So. FRUSTRATED!!! LOL. It does feel better to get that out!!

Sorry for the lack of posting- except for the recipes- but I have been quiet. Quiet for me is normally a bad thing.

Sigh-my cousin and her two boys are still living with me. It is hard. Really hard. So hard in fact that I am looking longingly out my sunroom window wishing it was more than 10 feet off the ground so I could jump...well maybe Im being a
tad over dramatic now.

They are messy, loud, disrespectful, and have an utter disregard for peoples' belongings. My cousin is no better. She takes the easy way out by ignoring their bad behavior-which makes me seem super mean because I refuse to ignore and DO discipline them.

They are mean to my daughter- which I have no tolerance for. They take her toys and wont let with them. The eight year old is the worst. He has ADHD and no amount of medication seems to make a difference.

I hate to say it- but I am going to have to ask them to leave. Soon. Really soon. Otherwise my mental health might not be able to take it!!!

Date Night

My husband and I have been married for 8 1/2 years.

That is a long time.

A really long time.

So time in fact, I think; you begin to lose some of who you were "before" marriage. You start to blend into a being who ends up just coexisting with each other- not realizing the gap developing. Until you suddenly open your eyes one day- and your like 'Oh shit, who the hell is this person sleeping next to me???'

I think thats the road we were headed down. We both have been busy, with work, with our daughter and with ourselves. We were neglecting our marriage though. We were slipping away as best friends.

So we decided to take time out of our schedules and be spontaneous- however for us being 'spontaneous' requires a date and time on the calendar....We are now trying weekly date nights. Last night was our first one and we went BOWLING!!!

I had such a good time. It literally has been a decade since I had went bowling last. I lost horribly- but we had so much fun. Of course Im sure the alcohol helped us along. We have plans to go back next Wednesday.

I know this cant solve all of our problems but I think I might at least get my best friend back.....

Adoption...revisited

Our daughter is soon to be 4 years old. You know what that means right?!?!?!? Time for the endless.. "when you having/adopting another one?"

And the most nauseating comment in the world "When are you gonna GET another one????"....Children are human beings here people and cannot be "gotten", I mean like I can just go to the store and say "Oh-I'll take that one right over there..No..not that one....the one in the blue..." Come on. Where has peoples' sensitivity chip gone???

Honestly, we are content. Completely content. Sure- I see newborns and my heart jumps a little, i love smelling that newborn scent...but I feel we are complete. Sarah has made our family whole. She has already made our dreams come true.

On the foster care front- since we have moved to another state 1 1/2 years ago (can you believe how quick that went???) we have not been relicensed as foster parents. I am not planning to do so either. Our lives are busy and fulfilling and my stomach is done dealing with the state.

I am starting back to school again this fall. Not really wanting to- but I need to. It is something I need to do. The way prices are going up and up and up- I have to do somehting to bring in the big bucks...Ha

Speaking of bucks- I have made over $85.oo so far by signing up for RME (see button to right) and have safely and fee free transfered to my bank account!!! With our profits my cousin and I have decided to use the money to make homemade soaps-- Ic ant wait!!!

Tax Rebate

Where are you? I have been obsessively checking my bank account 10 times a day-and you are no where to be found. Our check should have been here on the ninth....Hmmmmmm

I had to leave work a little early today- I had a massive headache that would not seem to go away. Its been along time since I had one of those. So I came home and laid down for a nap- when I woke up I looked at the clock and Sarahs daycare would be closing in 10 minutes!! I got there in the nick of time. I felt horrible- she was the last kid to be picked up. How sad. Guilty mommy here. She didnt seem to mind fortunately.


So when we get home she starts looking through a magazine I had gotten in the mail and proceeds to tell everything she wants to "buy". LOL. At this rate I am going to have to get a second job before she is a teenager.

Zzzzzzzzzzz

So I am completely exhausted, I guess 4 hours of sleep daily for over a month will do that to you. I just have too much to do at night it is really hard to get to bed earlier. It doesn't make it easier that my job starts at 0530 am.

Plus my cousin and her 2 boys are still with us and likely to be so for at least another month.

Calgon take me away!!!!!!

Mondays, blah...

I hope everyone had a really nice mothers day...I spent the day traveling from here to there and there to here. Im back at work today-blah.

I am already in vacation mode...only problem is that it is not for another 4 weeks....Ech.. I am so ready to relax and do nothing for 13 days. Well not exactly nothing- my baby chick will be arriving on 6/10 and then a few days later i am going to Boston-all-by-my-self!!!! Woo! Talk about excitement.Im only going for a few days though...

I wish the rain would stop!! Do you hear me Noah?? This is not the time for building arks! Dont you know that i have a garden to rotatill and plant? Landscaping to do? A chicken coop to build???

Whoa

Yes I realise I have been an extremely erractic of not totally absent blogger here lately. My apologies... Hopefully some of you still swing by here occaisionally...

Life has been busy. Too busy. I started working about 2 months ago. In a coronary care ICU. So that itself has been life altering. I work 4 days a week rotating day/night schedule, which totally bites.

Poor little Sarah has had a hard time with Mommy going back to work. Especially when I work nights---sometimes I dont get to see her for 3 days in a row....I hate that, but I love my job. It is very interesting and extremely fast paced. If anything it has been giving her more one on one daddy time.

The last few days here have been beautiful as far as the weather. In the low 70's... NO humidity...I had almost forgotten what it was like to breathe air that did not have 100% humidity...So we got alot of outside work done today...I started putzing around with my 2 gardens....Yes I said TWO gardens!!!! Its crazy. So far today we only planted scallions---but only because the previous owners seriously never even did any maintenance outside for the year they owned this place.. I got all of my things to plant the big garden after our neighbor rotatills (sp?) it...its that big..

Sarah has definately blossomed into a little chatter box...even though we still strain to understand her alot of the time. But at least she is making BIG progress. She will be 3 in August and is 29 pounds, 37.5 inches...my little green bean.