I thought I was past feeling jealous when someone was about to have a baby. My cousin is due in August with her third boy, and her baby shower is this Saturday.
Im happy for her- I truly am.
But I find myself having ugly thoughts that keep popping into my head.
Everyone is so excited. Going to great lengths to make the party fabulous. I am even co-hosting the party. But I feel...
Left out. Isolated.
Is that even possible? My daughter was adopted. I never had a baby shower or an adoption shower thrown for me.
Every baby item my daughter had- I bought it.
My step mother is even buying the crib.
I had to buy my daughters crib.
Im embarassed to say I am jealous, but I am.